I'm tired because I'm a builder!
I realized that I am in the process of building four very different things in life all at once. That might be why I feel drained a lot even though I get enough sleep. I'm constantly thinking about how to make four different things better, how to keep them going, how to build and grow them.
I'm building this blog, for one thing. As any blogger will tell you, if you want your blog to grow you need to put a lot of effort in. Photos, projects, new content... they all take work!
|my workout buddy Molly and I!|
I'm building a church, too. Obviously, not by myself, but I'm part of a team that has started a brand new church in our city that was officially launched last October. It's a multicultural church, and we're in a very monocultural town. It's pioneering type work that has never been done in our city, and we can't find many examples of other diverse churches in monocultural towns in the U.S.... so we're trying things and listening for God's guidance and learning a lot through trial and error as we do something new.
Then, lastly, I'm building a family business! Recently I've stepped into the role of managing my father's recording studio and music publishing company while they are out of the country. While I grew up at this studio (my dad started it when I was in elementary school), I don't know all the technical aspects. I'm learning office work, technical skills to do recording sessions, and working on marketing and expanding the business.
All of this is a lot of learning and working outside my comfort zone, which often comes with new things. It's a bit of a trying time, but I know I'm developing grit and moxie that will come in handy later.
I have to remind myself to be patient with me. I think we expect ourselves to pick things up and run with them faster than we as humans are really able to do. While we may be pretty bright, humans need time to adjust to change, and there's a lot of change in the modern world and in my current situation. I need to be patient with myself and be willing to put in the work to see things grow over time, not just overnight like I may want. Building things takes time.
All this to say, I know I haven't been posting as much as I used to, but it just might need to stay that way for a bit in order for me to keep my sanity. I love this blog, and you readers are the best, so I'm not going anywhere! I'm just building a lot of stuff right now and may post a bit less. Some days I'm too tired to pin curl my hair and put on a nice outfit, and I know you guys understand.
Are you building any things in your life right now? How are you adjusting to change or increased responsibility?